CON-FUSE-D Brain... :/

Life... Its supposed to mean something, right? Or not?

 But I don't feel like it fits into any definition we have ever got for it. Its mysterious at times, but mostly very confusing. What does it all mean? Questions, mostly stupid, unanswerable and crazy have popped up in my mind. I keep trying to justify every day of my life, but it just simply seems impossible.

 Since I started having words for the feelings and thoughts that boggles my mind, I ask myself, what does it all mean? Why do I think like this? Why am I like this? 

 Its a crazy life for sure. Every moment of our life is defined by our mood, or feeling or our perception of the situation we are in. The happiest days or even mintues, of my life I feel so positve and I feel like the sun shines through me. My perception of the world becomes a happier one, and all seems achievable, within ones grasp.

 But the dark days, as they move in, the world seems like its falling apart. A little piece of my soul feels ripped everytime something bad happens. Why is that so? I dont really understand the human mind, or least mine. its boggling and jumbled and i still cant find a perfect word to describe it.

 Or maybe is this how I am supposed to feel? What is right and wrong? There is never a clear definiton for what is right, and what is wrong to feel. there are no boundaries, the lines seem vague and unclear if at all it exists.

 Just in the end, all I can believe in is Life is a mystery, and all I could do is to Deal with it.. Isn't that all I am supposed to do?? 

Happiness has no Limits.. :)

Life is full of moments that are worth sharing, at least worth remembering. I wanna cherish those moments, those feelings, so that someday when am upset or some one is they see this post, or I see it and it puts a smile on my face, just like today. 

 There is always a need for us, to be more humane, or show humanity. I feel a need to see the good in most people. I wanted to do, something on my part for the world, a small change, that surely wouldn't help change everything that happens today but maybe work towards for a better tomorrow.

 As said above I had the opportunity to join a group of similar minded people at 'The Green  Nest', a NGO, made of students like me, helping the society, building them for a bright future. I got into one of their project called 'BookWings'. Boy! Oh boy! was I excited. It was finally a big step for me to help, for me to full fill something that had been nagging me for years. My part, like so many others was to go to an orphanage and teach the kids there English and various other activities.

 There it began, my journey in The Green Nest. The day of my 1st session, I was super excited, hyper and nervous, hoping that I don't mess up. Got onto the bus and arrived at the Barberra Kelly Centre for girls. The girls belonged from 7 till 16 years, had had their breakfast just then and were preparing for their session with us, volunteers. 

 As soon as I entered, I was greeted with smiles all around, with a Good Morning here and there. Being the newbie, I was so nervous that I was get a word out. All I could do was smile, I couldn't help but smile, seeing so many children grinning and smiling at you, as if you were Santa Claus. So as everyone gathered in the study hall, each of us volunteer, was assigned a particular kid to teach. 

 My kids name was Sujitha. She has a sister sushmitha and hails from a family of 5 brothers and sisters. As I sat down to have a chat, the kids started gathering around me, and asking about where I was from, whether I had a sisters, or I can sing or dance. So many smiling faces, shining so brightly, eager to learn about me of all the people in the world. It is priceless. Thus began the class, with me teaching the kid about English, space, the states of India and having a laugh here and there to lighten the mood. The 3 hours went by so fast, all I can remember is a buzz of activities but I can never forget the overflowing of happiness.

 To all of those that feel depressed, miserable, sad, I share this moment with you. I am a sad person for now, but the reason that I make some one smile just once a week makes me live for yet another. There is always someone out there in the world who needs you. Who needs your attention, your smile to make their life better even if it is for a moment. So don't ever give up Hope.